Thankful...

Just thought I'd give the devil a black eye this morning and declare that I am THANKFUL! It amazes me how you can experience such a life of disappointment that it becomes a place of residence for you. When happiness, peace, joy....comes knocking at the door you scream from the inside: What do you want! I woke up this morning with gratefulness in my heart; not because anything had happened warranting me to feel this shout in the pit of my stomach but just a sincere thank you resounded in my spirit. Now if you know me you know my mind wanted to believe this was a set-up. It was just something trying to get me excited just to scream:SIKE as my anticipation grew. I wanted to ask my spirit: what are you excited about?! With all that is going on around you surely you have a reason to invite "mr. cloud" (depression) to dinner! My spirit responds: its not what is around you that I am excited about but it is what is ahead of you. I began to think about my family and found myself pondering on how far the Lord has brought us and my spirit began to shout even louder. No!!!Not now!!! I gotta get to work. But I tell ya what...meet me here tonight around 8:00 and we are going to stomp on the devils head I declared.lol.

After teaching bible study last night a lady approached me and said: I remember when I first came to this church you were very sad. Every time I saw you, you would be sitting next to sis Palmer and I felt so bad for you as I wondered what life circumstance would cause such a beautiful young lady to be down trodden. But I look at you now and you are a totally different person. Your smile lights up the room and the aura that you bring blesses me so. I looked her in the eyes and said: thank you. You know the Lord is really working on me accepting compliments. I so naturally try to turn around a compliment in modesty by returning it. Im not use to people acknowledging me and genuinely speaking life over me so I tend not to know how to respond but I am indeed getting better.

This morning I also told the Lord that I miss Mother Palmer. My spirit responded: I am her, and she is me, the same spirit that rested in her, rests in thee! OMGEEEEE...I immediately hung up the spiritual phone! I guess I better call Him back later and declare my spiritual phone lost signal.lol. My spirit was trying to show out this morning and I had to go to work! Then jokingly as I am: I say..while you tryna disturb my reality can I get 180.00 on my car payment please. The Lord laughed and said...seek ye first the kingdom of God....

In short....I am indeed thankful :). If I can write about the dark side experiences surely I can take time to share the light :).

~evenme LoRD, evenme~