Hills to climb...

I am not the same, I am changing.
I am stronger now, then I was then.

I believee I am entering a seasons of manifested promises. My spirit is often revisiting those words that were spoken while I was in a pit of despair. The Lord is reminding me of the very things He had promised. Things that I have long forgotten. Things that I declared to be delusions of my imagination. Things that seemed far off but lurked so near. Things that I secretly desired but didnt have much faith to believe in. I am being reminded of every seed sown and every burdened bared. God, has a way of letting me know that He has not forgotten.

I have not arrived, and surely am not perfecting that which I fall short. I have not grasped every concept, and have not owned every expectation. What I do know is that I am learning to accept His love and bask in knowing that in spite of my fears, hesitations, and uncertainties He is yet still calling me.

Who is this girl? Born with purpose yet lifes circumstances has taken her on a detour ride. She is coming around that mountain and THIS time she will enjoy the view. Is everyday filled with a bed of roses....no, but she has made the choice to take each experience and stride with gratefulness and hope being her guide.

When I hear the Lord say: According to your faith, be it unto you-My heart sings. Unfortunately, the challenge is discovering what I am believing God for. What do I want God to do for me? I believe I have been robbed of my ability to dream dreams. My ability to know what being happy truly means. So, Lord you ask me: What shall a Father give his daughter? I say: give me a dream, give me purpose, give me-"me". Reveal to me the desires of "my" heart. Show "me" the person I was intended to be. Help "me" discover life, love, joy, and peace. Lord I want you to give me-"me". I dont know her. We are strangers. When you bring "her" to me I will get to know her, embrace her, and love her. I dont want to loose the girl I know for she has shown herself to be faithful but she needs her better half...Together we will accomplish much. Me and "her".....me and ME.



I am not the same, I am changing.





I Won't Complain lyrics
I've had some good days
I've had some hills to climb
I've had some weary days
And lonely nights
But when I look around
And I think things over
All of my good days
They out weigh my bad days
So I won't complain

Sometimes the clouds are low
I can hardly see the road
I ask the question Lord
Lord, why
Lord why
Why, why, why so much pain?
But the Lord knows what's best for me
Although my weary eyes
Oh they can't see
So I'll just say thank you Lord
Thank you Lord
Thank you Lord
I won't complain

God has been good to me
He's been so good to me
More than this world could ever be
He's been so good
He's been so good
He's been so good
To me

He dried all of my tears away
Turned my midnights into day
So I'll just say thank you Lord
through all of my heartaches
Thank you Lord
Through all of my trials
Thank you Lord
I been misunderstood
But thank you Lord
Even been lied on
But thank you Lord
Body wretched with pain
But thank you Lord
Bills were due
Don't know where the money is coming from
But thank you Lord, thank you Lord
Thank you Lord
I won't complain

God has been good to me
He's been so good to me
More than this world
More than this world
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Could ever be (ever be)
He's been so good
He's been so good
To me (He's been just that good)
He dried my tears away
Turned my midnight into day

So I'll just say thank you Lord
Thank you Lord
Thank you Lord
Through all of my trials
I want to say thank you Lord
I been misunderstood
But thank you Lord
Early in the morning
When I wake up I thank you Lord
(Thank you)
You been so good to me
(Thank you)
You opened doors I could not see
(Thank you)
Made a way out of no way
(Thank you)
When I was sick
The doctor said I wouldn't get well
(Thank you)
He healed my body
Now I can say
I just want to say
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you

Nobody like the Lord
(Thank you)

When I think of the goodness of Jesus
(Thank you)

And what he's done for me
(Thank you)

My soul cries out
(Thank you)

Thank you Jesus
Thank you Jesus
Thank you Jesus
You saved me

Santified me
You baptized me
Filled me with the holy ghost
I want to thank you
Nobody like the Lord
Early in the morning
From the rising of the sun
To the downing of the same

Thank you Lord

Thank you Lord

I won't complain