Oh what a great change in me…

Guest Blogger: Ebony Duncan Wednesday WELLness

Oh what a great change in me…

Today I sit in amazement of what a miraculous transformation has taken place over my life just within the past year. I am no longer the same, I have changed. Sunday at church they conducted altar call for those needing a specific provision in which I did not all need but I went anyway. I gestured one of the younger prayer warriors to pray for me and as she asked what I needed I tried to make up something that went along with the message that was just rendered by Bishop and we both laughed. I then confessed that I didn’t really need anything I just didn’t want to pass up an opportunity to be prayed for. She proceeded to pray and the prayer was just confirmation that a great change had taken place and I was no longer needing a prayer to get me through but rather an opportunity to hear the admirations of the Lord and that made my heart glad. At that moment it had become apparent to me that this was indeed a new season and the season I had experienced before was no more and shall never be again! Why? Because a great change has taken place in me!

I cut my hair into a fade in the middle of winter Dec. 2011 each stage of hair growth reminds me of my declaration for new. As I embrace this kinky curly glory I embrace other aspects of my life. I am learning more about me in this season then I have in all the seasons of my life. Instead of crying at my mistakes, I laugh at the opportunity to make them. Instead of taking what I am given, I demand what I want. Instead of blaming, I own. Instead of wearing the cloak of shame/disappointment, I walk in pride and honor. My smile is no longer displayed out of habit, but there is a story behind each gappy space that I wear so proudly. I am learning each day to love me with an everlasting love. I will embrace this season as I know that there is a special grace over me as my flesh is in overdrive. I feel like a child that had been diagnosed with cancer and is now going through chemotherapy. Because of the diagnosis and the healing aftermath the parent showers the child with all the love and adoration as they let them get away with things that they normally would not but of course there will come a time when the child is healed and discipline will resume. With that said, thank you God the Father for my season of chemo!lol.

Each day brings a new experience, A new revelation, &  a new found love of self. Ive never had a love like this before and I am really all googly, moogly inside. With this new found love my nurturer instincts are really kicking in as I want to naturally give what I have: love. But I am demanding Mrs. June Cleaver to remain hidden for a little while longer as I continue to ride this ride of self discovery and love J.

Until next time ladies,

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