Wednesdays WELLness
Matters of the Heart
So many times as women we experience ‘matters of the heart’ that make us keep our behaviors a secret. We are afraid of being judged and troubled by the fact that what we are doing does not make a lot of logical sense yet it feeds the yearning and the nagging that we cannot seem to make go away. I think Im on drugs. The more my mind and some people tell me you are not whats best for me, the more I want to defend you, the more I want to defend me, the more I want to defend us; but I don’t because I don’t want to sound like a fool to them, and quite frankly I don’t want to sound like a fool to me. I said I would not take your call, and I did. I said I would cuss you out but I didn’t instead I wanted to pray for you. I said I will not write or visit you, but I want to. As my eyes are filled with tears, I truly want whats best for you. I want you to rise above every circumstance that has killed your dreams, stolen your freedom, and erased your hope. As I want all these things for you I cant help but become enraged that you are indeed the thief in which I speak of. You are standing looking down the barrel of the gun of your own self pulling the trigger. You are the green chalk board and the black eraser. I truly want whats best for you, honestly because I think that’s whats best for me. If you were at your best I would ride with you until the wheels fell off but because you are not I sit on the bus stop hoping that you will pull up with a new set of wheels, a new outlook, a new mission, a renewed belief. I wish there was a standard time frame for a women to determine when she should get off the bus stop and get her own wheels. I said I never wanted to be her. I don’t want to be her yet I have purchased another 30 day bus pass. I guess only time will tell what shall come of this. Only time will tell…but time please do tell. Speak loud enough that you pass through my mind and penetrate my heart cause that’s where the matter lies. Time waits for no one is what I heard so should I become friends with time and wait no more? Time today is my enemy as I ponder on how our timelines could not be further from different yet I subconsciously wait. While my subconscious waits I will consciously move forward by continuing to learn how to love me more, communicate with my Father more, learn what is means to have fun, continue advancing my career, enjoying my family in a new way, & daydreaming about that talk dark and handsome that will rescue me…from you.lol. I don’t have an answer today ladies but today I give you a Matter of my Heart. The heart is the strongest muscle in ones body and mine is definitely getting some exercise. With that said, I am believing that this shall not kill me but will indeed build a strength that only experience can bring. I love yall & All is Well!
A true writer not only enjoys writing but they enjoy reading the writings of others and connecting with them. Below is a song about Matters of the Heart that made me scream----I concur, I concur!
Until next time Ladies,
Don’t drown in the Well.
Matters of the Heart Lyrics……
Waking up with my head in a cloud watching the morning come.
Another day of the week in a month, in a year, in a life that's come undone.
I might as well quit trying to get you off my mind
I might as well quit hoping that this heart will heal in time
'Cause I can't burn a bridge that I'm still crossing And I can't lose a past that I'm still lost in
I can tell myself it's over and I need a brand new start
But there's no such thing as mind over matters of the heart
Everyday there's another attempt to convince myself you're gone
Every night there's a promise I make that tomorrow I'll move on
But there's a voice inside me that calls your name out loud
A part of me still hopes to see your face in every crowd
'Cause I can't burn a bridge that I'm still crossing And I can't lose a past that I'm still lost in
I can tell myself it's over and I need a brand new start
But there's no such thing as mind over matters of the heart
I can tell myself it's over and I need a brand new start
But there's no such thing as mind over matters of the heart
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