I was at a high school sharing 'my story' and it dawned on me for the first time that I had made it. To have those students eagerly inquiring of my journey and feeling honored to shake my hand, get a hug, or receive a personal word of encouragement made me feel like a local celebrity. No I have not arrived but I have certainly made it. There were many instances when I did not think I would make it. There were many instances when people said I would not make it. Instance, after Instance, after Instance.....yet I made it!
As you find your way to recovery I honor you knowing that your one truest wish was that I would make it. Well...this mothers day season I want you to find peace knowing that I did. I remember vividly the times you would pray for your children. Whether you were intoxicated, neglectful, absent, or abusive there remained a sincerity of heart for your baby girl to be more than you could ever give her. Your own need to be loved didn't allow you to give what your heart desired and your own demons sabotaged what your truest intent was BUT GOD heard you! He loves you sooo very much! What a blessing it has to be to give birth to a generation of curse breakers! Glory! Something kinda like a biblical Mary if you ask me. People didn't understand why she was chosen to carry such a game changer but God knew. Mama I made it. No I have not arrived, but damn it I have made it!
Know that everywhere I go, I take you with me. All that you were not able to do...know that it is being done. I will always be known as Eulas daughter...and your legacy will forever live on. You could have aborted me but you didn't. You could have left me in a dumpster but you didn't. You could have let the system have me but you didn't. You loved me...your chocolate butter ball. Yeah...you loved me. You still love me today...
No today I don't have a house on the hill to put you in but I give you my words, which means more to me than anything considering circumstances tried to steal my voice.
I am learning to be free and with this freedom comes revelation, forgiveness, and peace. My prayer is that freedom comes to you as well. May your knowing that I love you- free you.
You know how I know ive made it: because I sit at the same boardroom table of those that where my teachers and in some instances they work for me.lol. Quoted from a high school teacher asking me: how do you feel that I work for you?- cause he was tinkled pink knowing that he could take credit for my success. Well by dear, so can you :).
Happy Mothers Day Eula Fay Duncan
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