2017: A year of Constants and Change

2017: A year of Constants and Change....

<The more things Change the more they stay the Same>

I end 2017 with this light hearted sarcastic tone of change and same existing together. The feeling that you survived but cant give a definite win or lose while settling for a draw.

This year life happened. This year I existed in the midst of those happenings. This year my heart and my mind I held in my hand not wanting to lose either. 

2017: When she knows the sun will rise everyday, regardless of what else is happening in her life. She undeniably feels blessed yet unsure as she feels stuck between never and forever.

2017 was not what I thought it would be as I predicted I would do something personally or professionally groundbreaking like publish or direct or something physically or spiritually ground breaking like lose weight, worry less and pray more. Instead...2017 I lived. I was present and I felt. I laughed and I cried. I gave myself permission and I asked myself for forgiveness. I heard God whisper and I saw Him make provisions in the midst of chaos and change.

They say you gotta take the bitter with the sweet and that sums up life...well 2017 was LIFE and it was lived. If 2017 didnt reveal anything it sure did confirm that I am better, stronger, and wiser. Goodbye 2017. Hello 2018.

Godlike Love

I want you to love me with a Godlike Love.

That Love that is personal.

That Love that is exclusive.

That Love.

That Love that feels like you and me with nothing else mattering.

In a room full of people we connect because our spirits speak.

That Love.

That Love that heals.

That Love that reveals.

That Love that consoles.

That Love that knows.

That Love that creates.

That Love that molds.

Yeeeees. That Love.

I want you to love me with a Godlike Love.

I want you to leave the 99 for that 1 kinda Love.

I want our love to be so uniquely woven you cant pull it apart kinda Love.

Pen to the Pad writing history kinda Love.

I want the kind of love that grows in the valley.

I want you to love me with a Godlike Love.

I want the kind of love that makes my God jealous.

I want you to love me with a Godlike Love.

Forgiving me Love.

Hearing me Love.

Seeing me Love.

When I fall off of the wall you run to put the pieces back together Love.

Youre in my dreams Love.

You are my dream Love.

When I wake up youre still there Love.

Screaming Love from the mountain top with no regrets Love.

Praying to God on how to love me like Him Love.

That’s My Love.

A New Year Has begun.....

2016 is now behind us as we stare 2017 in the face wondering what will become of this new year.

2016 was actually very good to me. Life changing milestones/markers were created this year. I am now in great anticipation of how these milestones will manifest into future magnitude! We will be able to say that 2016 is where it all began or maybe where the light bulb turned on or where IT all started to make sense or came full circle for that matter :).....

 The first quarter of the year I was comfortable with the idea of cohabitation and trusting my heart in the hands of another. During this time it had become clear that my grandmother was dying of cancer and no longer just living with it. Her words became nods. No more eating. Just sleeping and waiting. The Hospice House took good care of her and those last moments were solemn. She was the matriarch of our family and her absence will be forever felt. All the questions and insecurities about my upbringing where laid to rest...none of it mattered. I was at peace and so was she.

The second quarter of the year I got engaged! Whooo Hooo! Even though my grandma gave Jerron a hard time on her dying bed I asked if I should consider him permanently and I received the nod of affirmation. He proposed and it was special to him and for me. Moving right along the youngest of the Duncan Clan graduated college! HBCU! Fit & Fierce! She makes me proud and I am always in tears wanting the very best for my baby.

The third quarter was spent planning the wedding of a century that was to happen in .5 seconds but we pulled it off and it was all I could of ever imagined. During this time I was hired part-time at Park University with Adjunct goals. Although I am a Social Worker by degree and trade I enjoy classroom instruction and am a teacher at heart. During this time I was also able to solidify myself as a leader at my day job with United Way and this was pivotal for what is to come.

The fourth quarter of the year I was a married woman and I became an AUNT to the most precious baby boy Caleel! My sister and best friend Ivory had the first child!!!!! He is something special :).


So 2017 We graciously welcome you to build on what has been and perfect those things that were neglected.

Facebook New Year Post:
 

Looking back over my life I sit here in amazement. Speechless. Tears of gratefulness. Just to then hear..."Its only the beginning". My God is faithful. I am a living witness that 'He will repay'. Maintain your faith and integrity and watch Him work on your behalf. You have truly grown when you don't take the actions of others personally as you realize its bigger than them. What God has for You...it is indeed for You. This is the year for your enemies to see every idle word spoken against you and every plot planted INTERCEPTED and manifested into a public display of glory, blessings, and miracles. The public humiliation you had to endure will be your thorn to keep you humble but it will not compare to the breaking news and headlines to
                                                                                    follow. Shine Bright with No Apologies!   
                                                                                    #EvenMe #2017

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